So, I am almost officially done. I've usually done one of these "I want to accomplish..." lists for the summer, but you know, this time is different. I had a nice long talk with a friend of mine the other day, and she really laid it on me. "You only want to go back to school because it's comfortable. You should just study for your LSATs and do the test." The original plan was to just enjoy this next year off (working, of course) and go into another undergraduate. But I think the hard hitting truth wins over on this one. I am kind of afraid to be tossed out into the wind. I make or break it, and well, I don't know if I have the discipline to be able to get to where I want. Which is why I was so eager to go back to school. In school, there's a system to discipline me, but of course it costs money. So, why don't I just read some books on my own, dive into the style of reading and thinking that the LSATs demand, and just discipline myself? It's almost ironic that I've decided to type this blog entry while Guild Wars is open on my other monitor. But you know, I feel like I need to write this down to remind myself. Well, what's the goal here? I have an LSAT book, and I am serious about preparing for that exam, but I want to discipline myself in other ways. For one, I need to work. I want an engaging job that will have consistent hours and be a steady pay cheque. The problem is, I shot myself in the foot in my first 2 years of university. I slacked off, and it shows in my GPA. Honestly, I feel really good about this annual GPA that I'm going to get, but I just don't feel like I have the over-all cumulative GPA to impress. This means a few things to me. First, it means I really have to nail the LSATs, that's a given, but the stronger my score, the less my GPA will weight (at least, I have a feeling that my LSAT performance can tip attention away from my GPA). Second, it means that I would do well to perhaps gain some experience in a law office. I wouldn't mind taking an non-paid position just to get experience to put down on paper. It would be even sweeter if I got this kind of experience while being paid. That's likely a pipe dream though, and well I wouldn't mind taking a retail/shift job if I could work in an internship at a law firm even just doing menial office tasks like photocopying and all that. I just want to be involved in it. Anyway, this summer, I will be taking the AST201 course (worth 0.5 credits) to finish off my undergraduate. In the meantime, I want to be able to find a job downtown. Ideally, this is how the next few months will go:
- Get a 9-5 job in admin assistance, or related. (This will help to boost my familiarity with the general work flow of offices)
- Finish the summer course in very good standing. This I don't think will be too much of an issue, it's not a course that will be a cake walk, but if I attend lecture diligently, I will master the material.
- Continue to study for the LSATs. For me the studying really just involves practicing thinking and reading critically to the degree that such a test requires. I'm quite capable of it, but I think I'm not careful enough in interpreting and assessing questions. Also, the logic puzzles are interesting. I can do them, but it takes me much longer than the ideal time, so I plan to see if I can get a logic games book just to stroke the mind a bit.
So, that's what's on my list. I'm not really concerned about the LSAT and summer course. What I am really worried about, actually, is the job hunt. My resume is famously weak, and well, I don't feel like it'll bring in any of the type of jobs that I want. People always say "spruce up your resume, pad it!" but I am a very, very honest person. I have a hard time lying about my work experience and skills. I don't feel comfortable saying I can do something when I know that I only sort of know how to do it.
Anyway, this is a critical juncture in my life, and I've thought long and hard about my options. I think going this route would be a lot faster and more financially efficient for me. I think though, that I don't have time to be picky about a job. I've got to start repaying my student loans. So the dilemma is this: should I post-pone looking for the job I want and just get work to get some income happening? I feel like that's a wise decision, as my bank account is perpetually empty in the face of my (exuberant) expenses.
First thing's first, I need to get my resume in order, but I think I'll need help.